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What does the expression “Let go and let
God” mean? What is the ‘good news”? What is the proper use of free
will? Sheikh Din Muhammad Abdullah al-Dayemi answers those questions
and plumbs the depths of willingness, willfulness and making choices.
Once again, I would
like to explore the difference between willfulness and willingness.
Previously, I have characterized “willfulness” as a mental-emotional
tendency that is self-absorbed, self-serving and centered on the
individual. The “individuated self’ is that aberrant expression of
Divine Consciousness in the human being that holds itself apart from
the Divine Self. That Self exists as the essence of all created things.
Willful, therefore, means being preoccupied by one’s individuality.
Within willfulness, one’s only reference is one’s own mind, a mind that
is apart from the workings of others. Willfulness employs the use of
the “free will” and its individuality to hold itself distinct and
separate from the whole of creation.
Indeed, free will is a
gift of Consciousness, and yet, we know that this gift is a
double-edged sword. The free will allows us the choice to enjoin
ourselves with the Divinely Intended Purpose, the natural destiny for
creation, as that purpose has been extended to each one of us
personally. Or, through its capacity for individual self-reflection,
the free will may have us think that we exist unto ourselves, and that
our individual wills are actually apart from the Divine Destiny.
Paradoxically, the very gift that allows for the personal experience of
love through choosing love is the same thing that allows for the
experience of the opposite by choosing to hold one’s self apart.
Conversely, I have
described “willingness” as letting go, giving ... a release into the
Divine Design as reflected in one’s own personal flow. The
mental-emotional ideation of willingness is centered on the Divine
Self, that which we call Allah. Within willingness we offer ourselves
willingly; we are self-effacing. We step forward and give openly
of ourselves in recognition that we are only a part of a whole.
In willfulness we find
ourselves centered on the individual “I” that we call the ego.
Willingness departs from the “I” and struggles to be ego-free.
Ironically, it is the ego that can choose to be released, but its
ability to choose gets in the way. Those things that the ego desires
such as security, pleasure, freedom from pain, assurance, love, joy,
etc. continually escape it, because the individual self seeks to own
and control them. The ego cannot have what it wants, because it is
sorely attached to the desire of what it wants. However, by
relinquishing the personal attachments to what we attempt to hold in
the form of ownership and control, we miraculously discover that
all of those things we were seeking literally come to US.
As I have taught . . .
for those who run after the riches of this world (accomplishments,
money, control, prestige, power and recognition), the world is always
running away from them. But for those who give up the chase of this
world by letting go of attachments, control and self-interest, this
world comes running to them to bow at their feet.
Let us turn to the Holy
Qur’an to learn more about this subject of willfulness, willingness and
the issue of making choices. The level to which we are able to
consciously make choices is the degree to which we are truly present.
How aware are we, and what is Remembrance? Remembrance, as exemplified
by spiritual presence and living awareness, allows us to realize the
necessary choices to be made between the apparent contradictions of
life. These are the opposite forces within the nature of duality that
exist between willfulness and willingness, between “right-guided”
thoughts, words and actions that move us forward into Grace or
“misguided” thoughts, words and actions that distract us backwardly
into ignorance, stubbornness and suffering.
From Surah az-Zumar
39:17-18:
Those who eschew
evil and fall not into its worship and turn to Allah in repentance, for
them is good news, so announce the good news to My servants. Those who
listen to the Word and follow the best meaning in it, those are the
ones whom Allah has guided, and those are the ones endued with
understanding.
Allah instructs
humanity through the revelation of Prophethood and in the most
universal of principles: In the realization of Allah, the Divine Self,
exists guidance. Those who follow that guidance come into
understanding. Al-Bashiir means “the Good News.” This is how Allah’s
name appears in the verse. What is the Good News? The Good News is the
availability of guidance to the Truth. In the case of the scriptural
text, the message is the news that comes from an “outside” source, the
Qur’an as spoken to the Prophet Muhammad (saws). In Reality, the
message of Truth is already internally encoded within us as the deepest
part of our nature. In this way, the Word is not really “news” at all.
It is very old.
The news of the Qur’an
refers us to understanding, the understanding between right and wrong
that is the struggle of the free will. Islam, as defined by submission
or surrender, calls us to follow the course of willingness - turn to
Allah. Willfulness, which might be thought of as the “opposite” of
Islam, holds us separate and apart from Allah. This spiritual
separation is called “shaytan” in Qur’anic language and
exemplifies constriction, retraction and rigidity.
Eschewing evil means
that we make a conscious choice to confront the force of separation
(shaytan). We choose to move away from the state of willfulness toward
the state of willingness. In other words: turn. The choice to turn away
from evil and to turn towards Allah is recounted by the Muslim during
prayer on a daily basis by uttering the phrase, Au’dhu billah himinash
shaytan nir rajim. I take refuge in Allah from shaytan the
rejected one.
Eschew evil and fall
not into its worship. Fall not into the worship of separateness, fall
not into the worship of your separated self. Turn to Allah in
repentance. Repentance is one form, one of the approaches in
relationship to Allah for forgiveness. In the past we’ve defined
forgiveness as a total release. Turn to Allah in repentance, and
for those who turn (come willingly), they will experience the release
of forgiveness. The release of forgiveness (repentance) is part of the
“Good News.”
Announce the good news
to my servants. Hasn’t this Good News been the Message from all of the
Prophets over time? Those exalted men and women who are the Friends of
God, who knew and know the way to God, try to communicate to the rest
of humanity: Let go and let God. Come along the way that is intended
for you. Do not hold yourselves back in the illusion of self-worship
and separation.
The blissful
realization of Unity is the direct experience that brings about the
understanding of Truth (al-Haqq). The experience reinforces the
spiritual intelligence required to discriminate in the decision between
right and wrong, and good and evil.
Surah al-Qalam (The
Pen) 68:34-38 gives us a message in this case. These few ayat (signs or
verses) are very deep and can give us profound intuitional
understanding.
Verily, for the
righteous are gardens of delight in the presence of their Lord. Shall
we then treat the people of faith like the people of sin? What is the
matter with you? How judge you? Have you a book through which you learn
that you shall have through it whatever you choose?
Gardens of delight in
the presence of their Lord is an oft-repeated image in the Holy Qur’an
as well as in the poetry of so many Middle-Eastern poets. Of course,
the garden of delight represents the condition or state that would
fulfill the deepest, heartfelt longing for happiness. A celestial
garden of delight is one so all-encompassing that it provides for
everyone, each in their own way, according to their personal
idiosyncrasies, propensities and preferences as to how they relate to
the presence of their Lord.
In this case, human
beings might be compared to snowflakes. Although everyone is
essentially the same, each person is unique and each person carries a
different set of physio-psycho propensities. How we experience delight
and what calls us into the presence of our Lord might be very
different, yet the celestial garden of delight would be so
all-embracing that it could call everyone, each in their own way, into
the presence of their Lord.
By nature, everyone is
spiritually called. The calling pre-exists within humanity as the
Divine Self. Yet there appears to be a marked difference in
quality between those that come forward willingly and those that lag
behind willfully. Every person will one day respond to the nature of
this spiritual call. The evidence is that everyone and everything will
“taste death.” Thus, there is an “appointed time of death” for each
living being. It’s not a question of whether or not we will eventually
respond to the call of Allah.
The question is more or
less one of process. Are we resisting our call, our mandate, willfully
or are we answering our Lord willingly? The human heart bears witness,
and measures in feeling, the difference in the qualities between
willful and willing. Therefore, the people of faith are different from
the people of sin. In this passage, I am likening the people of faith,
those that believe, as the one’s that come willingly. As well, the
people of sin, those that reject faith and are doubtful, are willful.
The Qur’an confronts
us, What is the matter with you? How judge you? Do you have your own
book (criteria and discrimination) on which to decide, the Qur’an asks,
or have you a hook through which you learn, that you shall have through
it whatever you choose? Here our attention is deliberately brought
back to our choices.
Against what reference
(book) are our choices made? Is it against the willful book of our
individual, selfish, self-centered, frightened personalities? Is
that the “book” that we check ourselves with? Or, shall we check
ourselves to the Divinely revealed book that we see reflected in the
Qur’anic teachings as well as so many of the other Holy
Scriptures? We must also realize that the Qur’an, as a
materialized book, is only a reflection of a primordial book, the
Qur’an of Reality that has been and is always being written.
From Surah al-Tauba,
the 9th Surah of the Qur’an al-Kariim, in the 38th ayah,
Oh you who believe,
what is the matter with you? Then when you are asked to go forth in the
cause of Allah, you cling heavily to the earth. Do you prefer the life
of this world to the hereafter? But little is the comfort of this life
as compared with the hereafter.
The hereafter in this
verse doesn’t just mean some sort of physical or metaphysical,
geographical location, as in a piece of spiritual real estate that one
relocates to after the mortal body dies. The reference to the
hereafter has deep and far reaching mystical and spiritual
meaning. The hereafter is a reference to infinite future
perpetuity, and the verse asks us to place our comfort in that which is
eternal. Exactly how long is the hereafter, and when does it
begin? From this very present moment, within this lifetime comes the
hereafter. And from this moment, when does the future end? The future
is the future endlessly, until the end of time. So, in essence, the
hereafter is eternity.
We are always asked and
instructed to choose eternity over temporal matter, the short-term and
the earthly engagements that we cling to so heavily. Yet, because of
our doubt, suspicion, fear, and willful ego attachments, we get stuck
and lose our perspective. We cling heavily to the earth. Over and over
again, we slam head-first, like a head-on collision, into the
earth (materialism). We mistakenly thought that the earthly things that
we cling to would give us comfort. Indeed they don’t! There is never
enough money for us here. There is never enough beauty for us here.
There’s never enough food, pleasure, partners, power or years to be
alive.
In spite of feeling
grateful, truly thankful, for life, family, beauty and for our time on
earth, our limitless longing is never completely satisfied by things.
Our limitless longing, infinite desire, always has us wanting more. As
our Baba Anandamurti has perfectly stated, “There exists in the living
being a thirst for limitlessness.” That thirst is unlimited;
therefore, limited things cannot quench it. So why do we cling so
heavily to the earth? What is wrong with us? If we truly believe ...
then what is wrong with us? Do we still prefer the life of this world
to the hereafter, even after it has been proven within the scope of our
own lives that the attachments that we have formed, and our willful
nature, do not provide us comfort? Our willful nature does not satisfy
human longing, but our willing nature will, both for ourselves as well
as for those to whom we willingly give.
How can you reject
the faith in Allah? Seeing that you were without life and Allah gave
you life, then will Allah cause you to die and will again bring you to
life. And again to Allah will you return. It is Allah who has created
for you all things that are on the earth. Moreover Allah’s design
comprehended the heavens for Allah gave the order and perfection
to the seven firmaments. And of all things Allah has perfect knowledge.
SURAH
AL-BAQARA, 2:28-29
Often we have trouble
making the “willingness choice.” We have trouble being willing to
surrender the heavy clinging attachments of our egos to this earth
because of great fear. It is hard for us to believe; it is difficult
for us to trust, to let go. “Let go into what?” we ask so often. Our
lack of Remembrance tests our faith in the presence of the Lord and the
gardens of delight, even though they are right before us. Thus, the
Holy Qur’an inspires us to turn to signs (ayah), in order that we might
remember the Ultimate Reality.
Why and how did we get
here? What is the rational, explainable cause that one can offer for
the existence of creation, life and the appearance of our own
individual self? The answer is an unexplainable Cause that the mystics
have often described as a “Causeless Cause,” a Mercy that provides no
intellectual or mental understanding as to why It is Present. Yet, It
is. The Lord God speaks to the Prophet Moses, “I am that I am.”
Philosophers and
scientists might be able to offer theories and ideas on the creative
process. Metaphysical explanations might describe with great finesse
the idiosyncrasies of the creative expression, the clash and cohesion
of its expansion and contractions, the fundamental elements that
comprise mind and matter, as well as the processes that the mind goes
through in order to unleash itself from limitations so that it might
realize Unity. Human beings debate the descriptions of the creative
process, but no one has ever been able to simply answer why. We will
have to turn to faith for that answer.
Faith is a matter of
the heart. Within our faith we must come to terms with life’s deep
existential questions. With the eye of the heart we must “see” the
signs. Herein lies the answers. The Qur’an reminds us, seeing that you
were without life. In other words, you were not; you didn’t exist. Now
you are; and Allah gave you life. Everything that you know yourself to
be, and all of the things that you cling to will eventually die. Even
the things that you cling to were at one time without life as well. You
were without life, and all things were without life, until both you and
their creation were caused to come into being by something that is
other than you.
Let’s face it.
Obviously you and I are not in control of the Universal Workings. We
originated from a great, mysterious, unidentifiable “nowhere,” and
so did the things that we are so attached to. As we arrive into
manifestation, and with the miraculous technology of free will, we
become attached to our own self and “our” things in the short-term,
only to find out that all things are in the process of dying. Nothing
lasts, neither things nor our own limited selves.
To where do all things
return? Our return is also to some unexplainable place, an
unspeakable realm and a destination that cannot be identified with
instruments or senses. We can only intuit our life after-death and
speak about it through faithful revelation and sometimes in inspired
poetry.
Seeing that you
were without life and Allah gave you life and then will Allah cause you
to die and will Allah again bring you to life and to Allah will you
return. It is Allah who has created for you all things that are on
earth. Moreover Allah’s design comprehended the heavens for Allah gave
the order and perfection of the seven firmaments. And of all things
Allah has perfect knowledge. SURAH AL-BAQARA, 2:28-29
There is nowhere that
you can be or nowhere that you can go that Allah is not. So when you
are asked to “let go,” come forward willingly, even though you may have
a hard time comprehending. The Comprehender has already designed the
heavens for Allah gave the order of perfection of the seven firmaments.
And of all things Allah has perfect knowledge. In eternity, the garden
of delight is already present before us. We simply need to let go and
be willing.
The material things
that you are given are but the convenience of this life and the glitter
thereof. But that which is with Allah is better and more enduring. So
then will you not be wise? Are these two things alike, one to whom we
have made a goodly promise and who is going to reach its fulfillment
and one to whom we have given the good things of this life but who on
the day of judgment is to be among those brought up for punishment.
SURAH
AL-QASAS, 28:60-61
By now we know that the
experience of punishment is non-different than the continuing
experience of pain and suffering that comes about by separation from
God. We have already tasted the consequence of the separations
that we have caused to ourselves in this life. Unity, by its nature, is
the release and reconciling of separations. Unity is the fulfillment of
the goodly promise. The pain of the punishment on the proverbial Day of
Judgment is constant heartache, the suffering that has one held
apart from Divine Communion, Divine Union - Unity.
There is nothing made
of material elements worthy of worship in this worldly life. There is
nothing here in matter that is eternal enough for us to unify with.
There is nothing within relativity that is fixed enough for us to
center upon. This includes the worship or preoccupation of our own
created selves. The more fixated and centered we become on material
elements and objects, including our own projections of self, the more
willful we become. This type of willfulness increases the likelihood of
falling out of God’s worship and falling into self-worship. Worshipping
anything other than Allah, Lord God, is called shirk in Islam
(associating worshipped partners with Allah). Shirk is the
greatest degree of separation from God, and therefore, is
classified by the Saints as the highest form of sin.
In the Ten
Commandments, the first introduction of sharii’ah (Divine Law), that
was revealed to Hadrat Musa (Moses [as]) from the Mount of Sinai, it
says, “I am the Lord, thy God. Thou shalt have no other gods before
thee.” Let us not fall into idolatry, the false worship of thinking
that the created of God is the same as God. This discrimination needs
to apply to even how we view our own individual selves. La ilaha illa
Llah. There is no god, but God. God is God alone, and although God may
imbue God’s own Self into the creation as the Self, still God remains
both one with but uniquely different from God’s own creation.
We exist among the many
parts of creation in its infinite variety, and all of those parts have
the One common God. All the parts of the creation have their
specifically intended purpose. Each part is appointed to its
position, and each part of the creation, including humanity, is
revolving around the Divine Nucleus that we call Allah. Allah is not
revolving around our individuality nor is Allah dependent on our
individual personalities or our temporal, ego driven forms.
To be willing means to
participate fully, consciously and in the Remembrance of the
Divine Flow while joining in the course of action of all creation in
its circumambulation of Allah. This is included in Allah’s intended
purpose for human beings. To be willful means to resist, as if we want
Allah’s creation to stop and revolve around us. Willfulness is
contraction. Willingness is expansion. Willfulness leads to
self-worship. Willingness leads to the worship of the Divine.
Let us pray that
through our Company and our Remembrance, through the guided examples of
the Prophets and through the Baraka (Transmission Blessing) of our
lineage that we make more willing choices. Let us follow the guidance
of the Holy Qur’an that we can trustfully use the intelligence and free
will that has been passed on to humanity by Allah Most High. Let us not
continue to suffer over and over again by the stubbornness of our
own separation. Let us be willing to stand before the presence of our
Lord naked and without fear. May we taste of that which is called the
garden of delight.
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