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An Introduction to the Principles and Processes of Self-Realization  

Part I. The Relationship and Centrality of Self-Realization
to all Manifestations of Healing


It's OK to be OK
Feeling healthy is feeling good, so we need to be able feel good. There is no question about this, but what about method and meaning? What is the true meaning of "feeling good", and what is hindering us from that ability, and how can we go about eliminating hindrances to that and achieving a state of optimum health? 

Feeling Good is Feeling God
I like to say that feeling Good is feeling God, for God is Good. But it might be easier to comprehend the deeper meaning of this if I reverse it and say that feeling God is feeling Good. So sit quietly for a moment and feel the Good, and know that it is God. Now stay there. 

Knowing God is not a mental exercise, but "feeling good" often becomes one. And knowing God is not an intellectual discipline. Of what benefit is the knowing of God in the mind if His Presence and Physical Healing Power cannot be felt in, and known by, the body? In order to heal, we have to be able to feel the Goodness of God. In order to feel Good, we have to be able to feel God, and in order to feel God, we have to be able to feel. 

When we say that we are feeling bad, it is not always our true physical perception that we are referring to. It is much more often a mental assessment of our emotional state as caught in between a pleasure and pain based upon the presence or absence of some thing or person. "I feel bad because I cannot help you, or because my car got towed or because my mother died or because my husband left me." Or "I feel good because I graduated, got promoted, married, or a new car." 

We feel pain. And feeling good is often equated with the absence of pain. Most of us respond to the feeling of pain with painkillers. We are taught to think of pain as a disease, an impedance to health. And diseases are "cured" with "medicine", the most common of which are painkillers. Basic painkillers are narcotics, inducing sleep, so we put our selves, or some part of ourselves, to sleep with painkillers. Being put to sleep is also what happens to irreparably wounded animals. But if we are killing pain we are killing physical feeling itself. And pain is an important and meaningful feeling. We must be willing not only to feel it but also to interpret its message correctly. If we kill the pain we kill the messenger, expressing our own unwillingness to listen. In response, it increases its insistence. 

So it's obvious that we have (at least) two kinds of feelings, emotional and physical, and that it is somewhat easy to confuse them in speaking. We can distinguish between when we are feeling bad emotionally and physically, but it is quite another matter when asked to distinguish between feeling good emotionally and physically. It's almost as if we have agreed to an unspoken promise not to speak well, think well or feel well of our physical selves, but always to abide on the common ground of an emotional well-being based upon a mutually shared artificial joy or sadness reflecting our standard of material gain. It takes a serious disability for us to take our real "selves" seriously. 

Why do we have this aversion to thinking well of ourselves? What shame is it we carry to prevent us from truly feeling good about ourselves?  It's called pride, but isn't it truth? It's called arrogance, but isn't it real? Why are the realities of our absolutely Divine state so disparaged that we are completely ashamed to claim them? We have been taught to "dis" ourselves. The well being of our physical has become a mere tool of our minds of acquisition and mental satisfaction rather that a means to know the reality of God. 

Does that not prove the existence of Heaven and Hell? Does that not show us plainly that Hell is the consequence of not accepting Heaven as our birthright? Surrender now to the unity and oneness in your heart  and stay surrendered. We either dwell in God in Peace eternally or we focus on the competitive mental and illusory pleasure of material acquisition and gain, calling it our feelings while in reality denying them. We say we are feeling good when in reality we are covering over how badly we feel. We make up stories and lie, and attempt to conceal from ourselves our own truth. In our minds we are attempting to connect with what appears to us to be some form of reality. We wish to be sure that what we are doing is the right thing. After all it's what everyone else is doing, isn't it? 

We think we are moving towards a more solid connection with reality but the solid connection we are truly looking for is only with the truth that is within ourselves. We perform this outward search because in the reality of our minds we feel disconnected from ourselves. Our drive to connect is in response to a sense of lack of connection. We imagine a connection that is not there because we cannot realize a connection that is. And that connection is with God - Who is everywhere - and no one can be any farther from God than any one else, except in their illusions. Your distance from God is all in your mind, and it is equal to your distance from your self. But because we've been taught to disbelieve in God, we have lost connection with the means of connection, which is ourselves. 

Understanding the Nature of Self-Destruction
If we feel bad about ourselves we die. It's plain and simple. If we do not care enough to take care of ourselves we will cast ourselves foolishly into harm's way. This could be any form of aggressive or passive self-destruction from committing suicide to slow death from apathy, alcoholism, depression or drug addiction. It could take the form of alienation from loved ones such as workaholism. 

There are deeply spiritual roots for self-destruction, recognition of which would go a long way toward creating an environment fostering satisfaction - instead of its opposite - in which people would not feel the need or desire to self-destruct in order to get the attention or find the love that they know they deserve. We need to feel good about ourselves because souls are from the Divine, and as such, command recognition and honor. Each and every individual soul is a messenger of Peace, Love, Beauty and Wisdom from God. 

It is obvious that the self in illusion needs to end so that the self in reality will be manifest. That is the point of death, what might rightly be referred to as the end of all struggle and the final liberation. And in that respect death, especially of illusion, is to be longed for. 

Suicide - The Ultimate Painkiller?
Suicide is a resultant thought and the logical conclusion of the painkiller mentality induced by modern medicine and education. In a western, materialist-oriented society lacking the understanding and recognition of our true spiritual motivations, suicide is a prevalent option of escape from the shame and humiliation of a "loser mentality" inflicted upon the emotionally disabled. However, lacking the courage or conviction to outrightly commit suicide, given that it is forbidden in all religion and frowned upon as an undesirable conclusion to life by most societies, it thankfully doesn't present itself as a solution to the vast majority of humanity. But it does occur to some, and all too many think of it or use it as a viable option. For a far greater number, however, lesser forms, and maybe more prolonged and dramatic, tortuous and vengeful methods of self-destruction appeal, alcoholism and drug addiction being examples of this.

Manifestations of suicide as the ultimate painkiller are different in different cultures. In earlier Japan there was the kamikaze pilots' heroism as the absolution of shame. In Israel and Lebanon there are suicide bombings in hatred and vengeance as the absolution of unbearable anger and grief. And in the West, we have financial frustration and familial vengeance as motivations for suicide, to absolve the pain of isolation and alienation. 

Dissolving Illusion - an Alternative to Suicide
The reality and identification of any thing is not complete without the inclusion of its opposite. So our definition of feeling good about ourselves is based upon and must include our definition of feeling bad about ourselves and vice versa. In this I refer to a unified dichotomy - resolving two opposite so that neither dominates and both are present. In this way is found Unity. In this way, our definition of life must be inclusive of death, not exclusive. Defining life as the avoidance or exclusion of death is defining it by its opposite, not by including its opposite. Defining health as the avoidance or exclusion of pain is knowing life to be only pain and sickness.

Unity is Reality. You cannot be "in" it and then "out" of it. You can only "feel' separation, but Unity is not about feeling one way as opposed to another. That is separation and in Reality there is no separation. Unity is about knowing truth. It is based upon the resolution of opposites and this resolution cannot be understood by rejecting one or the other. It can be understood by accepting and balancing both. Balance cannot be had except with two. Therefore two, or duality, are necessary to understand the balance of and "know" Unity. This necessitates inclusion. It is not based upon exclusion. 

So instead of running from feeling bad in an attempt to feel good, which is the standard and accepted M.O. in modern western thinking and the basic philosophy of modern "pain-killer" medicine, let's consider the possibility of accepting the feeling bad when we first feel it and using it as a guide to feeling good. It's our Divine right to feel bad, but in that Divine right we should also feel Good. So are we not feeling good that we can and are feeling bad? Investigate the source of our bad feeling and it will disappear.

On Transformation - From Struggle to Surrender
Health and illness exist side by side in us. By accepting that we can attain our balance and find our own unique and individual balance and harmony. It is not by attempting to harmonize with all that is good based upon a judgment that there is an "all that is bad" against which we must maintain a constant fight or from which we must maintain constant flight. It is in an acceptance and understanding of "all that is bad" that a true resolution, and balance and harmony, is established. Harmony exists. It exists in nature and is not based upon exclusion but upon total acceptance. Trees do not reject ants, woodpeckers, or fire. In the animal world there is resistance and surrender, life, illness, aging and death - all in totality and Divine harmony. 

Acceptance of Death
If we feel bad about ourselves we die. But if we accept feeling bad about ourselves as part of and a key to feeling good about ourselves, we begin to realize what life is all about. It is the same with death. As soon as we stop running from it, it loses its adverse power - the power of our programmed but unreasonable fears - over us and becomes an ally on the road to a fulfilled and satisfying life. As soon as we totally accept our inevitable death and departure from this bodily existence, all fear dissipates and we begin to live the real life as God meant for us to live it. Death is a wonderful ally. The simplest manifestation of this truth is in that it is decreed for us at an appointed time which can neither be accelerated nor delayed. So since we do not know when our appointed time is, we can live in the freedom that life has to offer.


So what, then, could be more healing than a completed course in self-acceptance? All the standard healing techniques are now based upon learning to accept and listen to the dis-ease or ailment. Granted it helps to have a genuine knowledge of the true nature and role of diet in healing. 

We are all good healers because we are not the healers, God is the healer. I have an extensive background in spiritual studies and eastern medical philosophies. 10 years study and practice of homeopathy, 30 years practice of Zen Macrobiotics, a complete study of Enneagram, Reiki and Energy Healing, the list goes on and on. And it all leads to and comes from this. 

How can there be - 
Success without self-actualization?
Self-actualization without self-realization?
Self-realization without self-recognition?
And self- recognition without self-acceptance?

So self-acceptance is the first step or degree toward becoming perfectly healed and healthy. Self-acceptance leads to self-recognition, of both awareness and what arises in awareness. Self-recognition, discernment and discrimination, the ability to determine what is real and what is emotion-based, leads to self-realization, the ability to actually and accurately step outside of ourselves and benefit from divine healing. And when the cup runneth over from that, we have a self-actualization, wherein the self that is true and full of truth comes forth and manifests in correct and profitable ways. 

Sitting patiently in self-realization is the very act of Zazen, the very truth and reality of Buddhism, the key to understanding Taoism, the basis of Yoga and all Martial Arts. It is the essential practice for the learning of discrimination, discernment, and recognition of truth in all prophetic religions and spiritual paths. Sitting beyond our desire to get up and move is the beginning of fasting and abstaining from motivated action. Restraining and thereby identifying our desires is the first step toward realizing our Divine and natural self, and becoming once again strong, healthy and rejuvenated.

The healing of natural forces is the strongest. But we must match our strength, will and determination against our motivations and impulses in order to allow the natural forces to have their dominating influence. How can we sit that long in self-resistance and not come to pure and self-awareness? Oh my God. Doing that in the presence of a realized teacher has absolutely got to be the ultimate healing experience, and doing it regularly in company and alone, which should be no different, has got to be the path to perfection. Fasting works, and abstention is the basis of all healing. 

There are two kinds of self-actualization. One that is based upon giving, which is tiring, fatiguing and taxing upon the body, and one that is based upon receiving and abiding in the divine power of the heart.

Illness is now being represented as "that which needs looking into". By that I do not mean standard medical investigation but investigation by a true knower of heart. For not only is spiritual healing proving to be an effective means of healing but it is also revealing itself to be maybe the only complete means. Anything that needs looking into may be a potential illness, and all illnesses, even in their subtlest manifestations such as agitation, aggravation or frustration are manifestations of anxiety and need a prepared, investigative and surrendered mind to reflect upon them, source then out and resolve them. Not only is peace necessary as in stop the war, stop the crime and stop the self-punishment, but the perfection of peace in the individual will manifest as perfect health. Jesus, for example, had perfect health, as did all the prophets. Even Job, with the myriad of diseases that he suffered, never complained of imperfection. 

In that vein it may be realized that everything in nature and even in the strange and complex imaginings and creations of mankind, is indeed perfect. If there were an imperfection - and even that would be perfect - it would be in the whispering in the heart that there is indeed and imperfection to be corrected.

So if anything is the cause of imperfection, or the false concept of the illusion or belief in imperfection, it is that which, also in the perfection of Divine Wisdom, was sent to create the illusion of imperfection. This is so that those who would choose to be victims and surrender to the illusion of imperfection would have an illusion to surrender to, and that those who would choose to be wise and see through the illusion would have an illusion to see through, and that those who would choose to be masters and reject the illusion of illusion altogether would dwell in a reality upon which they could rely. And it is these who are the truly successful. 

Herein lies the secret of transformational psychology. For how is it possible to transform anything into anything else except by separating its truth from its illusion? How could lead be transformed into gold if gold were not the reality of lead? How could illnesses be healed if healing were not the destiny - even the point, purpose and reality - of illness? Is it indeed the transformation of illness into health? Are there indeed "two" such entities or are they simply concepts, and thereby interchangeable? Or is there in reality only One, ever fluctuating, ever seeking its own harmony in a world of seeming turmoil causing fear and joy, attraction and repulsion. 

So what is attractive to us and what is repulsive? Better yet, what are the root causes of our attraction and repulsion? Are they not simply preferences? They are certainly different in everybody. One man's food is another man's poison. Is it possible to be free of preference? Why would we want to? If preference is a manifestation of individual personality, and individual personality is that which causes preference and concomitantly gets in the way of acceptance, then wouldn't it be desirable to be able to reside in that part of us that is free? Not there, you say? Wrong, I say. How can illness transform itself into health if health were not there? How can imperfection even exist except upon the establishment of perfection?