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I spoke to Ali one day back in October 2004. My dear friend K. suggested that I give him a call, as she felt that Ali could help me clear up some confusion that I was encountering on my "awakening path." As soon as I heard Ali's voice a distant memory had been triggered. Although we never met in person, Ali's energy had already touched my soul. His voice was unrestricted, clear and almost gleefully childlike and innocent. I distinctly remember feeling that here is a man who understands something that I want to understand and I am so grateful for his help. It would be a few weeks before I spoke with Ali again, and then another few months before I committed to his "10 week self realization" course. Each time Ali and I had a session, I gained a new perspective about my life as I unraveled another piece of my puzzle that I have been consciously working on for the past 12 years. Each session was a journey into and of itself that would one day help me see the truth of my own mystery in a way that would leave me in complete awe of the inner workings of my own genius. Ali does not practice therapy. He stands as your own mirror, assisting you in seeing yourself whole, clearly and honestly, perhaps for the first time in your life. For 12 year I had been traveling a "Spiritual Path to Enlightenment." I began my studies with a Chinese Master of Qi Gong who taught me about energy. My teacher never really gave his students a definitive answer about anything esoteric, rather he encouraged his students to have experiences with energy and then to decide what it meant to them. Being that I wanted to be the "perfect" student, I studied the things that sort of fell into my lap and sought out books that would give me knowledge of the "spiritual path" that would lead to my enlightenment and transcendence into a unified reality where everything was bliss. To make a long story short, I really liked the bliss aspect and would rather not have liked to deal with the reality part. So for 5 years I stayed in that bliss state. And eventually things began to surface, specifically my unhealed emotions that made me feel like I must have completely missed the boat because it pulled me out of my bliss trip. Feeling too embarrassed to talk with my teacher about feeling like a failure, I left my school and went out on my own, in what became the most insane and sobering adventure of my life. I came into contact with many fractured realities that had been living in my mind simultaneously. Some were so scary that I became paranoid about being around anyone because I was in a state of total mistrust within myself so I could not trust anyone or anything else. At other times the feeling of vastness, oneness and unity that I felt left me wanting to connect with the whole world. Over the course of the next 5 years I would find myself in states of paralyzing depression and hopelessness. Each time trying to figure out how to avoid this or how to recover as quick as I could from it. None of these tactics seemed to work or at least have any permanent effect. Then I met Ali. The first time that I called Ali depressed, I had expected a "miracle cure or tool" that I could use to "get out of it." Much to my surprise and disappointment, Ali said, "sit in it." "Sit in it," I'm thinking this guy is either totally inexperienced in world of depression or he is pulling my leg. I decided to trust him, I mean I was feeling so hopeless at the time that I thought what could a little more hopelessness bring? I came to see that Ali is actually a genius in this field, as well as the fields of addictions of any kind. Through our work together Ali helped me to see the genius in me, for choosing the life that I did, as a means of ensuring my own highest healing would take place. For years I had a habit of beating myself up about anything which I perceived as a failure, which was just about everything. So needless to say I was a battered, bruised, abused, nervous and anxious wreck on the inside. I was my own worst offender, as I have come to see that many of us are, and I didn't know how to stop, I only knew that I needed to learn a different way of being loving and kind to myself. Ali provided a safe, nurturing, firm, loving environment for me to see why I treated myself the way that I did, and to uncover the lies that I had been telling myself for years and the compensations that I used to keep those lies in place. One day in April of 2005, after Ali and I had been on the phone for about an hour and 10 minutes and just after I had completed my verbal dissertation/thesis/complete unraveling about "my story" and for the first time in my life felt my feet completely connected to the ground and a sense of having landed fully in a total state of presence, Ali in his calm, completely present and nonchalant way said, "Today is our tenth session." I was in awe and at the same time in a complete state of ease and grace. I had been in total surrender about my work with Ali. I honestly had no idea where it would lead me and the day that I realized that I had completed what I came to, I felt whole. Well, I had a somewhat preconceived notion of what it would look like but the reality of what it actually was far superceded any of my notions. My questions had all been answered and I delved into the silence that is often spoken about in spiritual teachings. That silence is a vast world of awareness, minus the judgments and the notions of levels or states; it is complete in and of itself and needs nothing to explain it. It simply just is. That state continues to deepen for me each day. And I am eternally grateful to Ali for his own personal work, for I see now that true masters are the ones that have experienced it all themselves and who can share the path they walked with others, not so much to teach them but to guide them through the process of truly becoming themselves and living the reality of who they are. I have often heard the saying, "the truth just is," and because of my work with Ali Ansari, I now know in every cell in my being that yes indeed it is. Our time together has provided me with a new and cherished awareness of myself. Ali is a rare and gifted guide whose presence is so complete in his work that often times he does not know what he is "doing" because he is simply "being" with what is and that is the force guiding his work. In love, light and gratitude, Alecia Evans ~ Intuitive Readings for Animals and Their People 04/17/05 |